20 pounds in 30 days?

you've got to be kidding me. but that's what it says on the front of the dvd. 20 pounds in 30 days, gone from my tall, tall frame. i'm a big girl, no question (38D, what what!), but those pounds from college - ok, really from freshman year - have lingered and lingered. the few times i was dedicated to the gym, i did lose some weight - and i was actually able to pull myself up on the tube from the water, something i'd never been able to do, a true testament to my hard work. so i'm doing it again, trying to be healthy, because in the end it's really not about losing weight and i like my curves.

(*side note: girls who are sizes 00-6 do not have curves. i'm sorry, but you don't. and i have absolutely no sympathy for you. people.com describing this girl in the caption as curvy really fucking pissed me off. sorry, i couldn't find the original caption, but that she-waif was actually referred to as curvy.)

so here i am, day 2, lying in a pool of sweat, ready to kill jillian michaels. i wasn't sore today per say. but i cannot do a push-up to save my life, and she has me doing 30 seconds of them. 20 pounds my ass. which may be how much it actually weighs.